Dating Idol Week 6

I woke up this morning in a great mood. I’m sure it was due to the fact that I had a sweaty, steamy, sexcapade dream. And I remembered details. And it was Greg who was romping around in the sheets with me.

Was that my intuition going berserck like my mother always rattled on about?

Was Greg and I in the stars, I just didn’t know it yet?

Mostly I thought it was because he was the last name I saw before I went to bed. And he does look fine enough from his profile pictures, so nothing to lose there.

A new guy down in marketing kept walking by my office when I was on the phone today. I think he wanted to chat, but since I was on the phone each time, he kept walking by. I’m starting to feel pretty good about some prospects. And I’m trying really hard not to let my ego get the better of me.

Dating Idol - Day 37

Damn. Damn. I hadn’t looked at the calendar in awhile. Until my mother called and asked the dreaded question. Where did I want to go for my birthday?

Now, it’s not the fact that she called, or even that it is my birthday. It’s this birthday. The big 3-0. It is stinging me a bit, but I’m not sure why.

Because I am single?

No kids?

Or just because 3-0 used to be really old?

Either way, I picked the steak place – mostly because I knew my parents liked it. Also because I knew I could order lobster and chocolate dessert and no one would say anything about my appetite.

I guess I do love my family after all.

Dating Idol - Day 38

I forgot mom and dad were having a dinner Friday. Maybe liked tried to forget. I wrote it down on the calendar when she called the other day. I think I subliminally blocked it out. Some family and friends, a few drinks and I could still hit the club with girls after. The parents went to bed early, so I could make both – or so I thought.

I should have smelled set up again. But my nose must be getting older too. Is sense of smell the first to go? I walked in the back and saw my sister making eyes at me. The not so good kind. Like get over here so I can warn you about what is taking place. Well, mom had her friends Lucille and Ed come. And it just so happens their son Ron who is in town. Ugh. Yup, he’s single. I asked her where he was and she pointed.

Dayum. My mother was starting to show potential because he was actually hot. I escaped to grab a beer. I knew I was going to need it. Dinner was ready fast, so I didn’t get to talk for more than introductions. But I had some wine. And a little more. And I really started considering the possibilities of a one night stand with Ron. That would shut the family up, huh? Then maybe my mother would quit setting me up.

So, do you have any guesses? Ugh. Yeah. I did it. Ron just left and now I’m not feeling like it was such a smart idea.

Dating Idol - Day 39

Ron called bright and early this morning. It was so early, I thought it was an emergency call from mom, until I looked at the cock and saw it was 9:30. What the hell? He just left at 3:30. Doesn’t he sleep in?

I’m regretting it already. All of the talk of one-night stands is over rated. He wanted to meet for breakfast. I didn’t. I wanted to sleep in. And forget him. And the headache I was starting to feel build behind my right eye.

I went shopping with Katie. At lunch in the mall my cell phone kept ringing. I ignored it. It rang again. And again in 20 minutes. Finally, Katie said to me, “turn it off or answer it!” Ron called four times. FOUR times!

I can’t. I spilled the beans with what I did. She laughed at me and promised to buy me a drink at the club tonight. Thank god for friends. She also said I could borrow her little blue dress. If she wasn’t my best friend, I would consider crossing into lesbianism for a night. She knew my mind and that I needed to let loose.

Dating Idol - Day 40

Going out with Katie was just what I needed. I bought new shoes to match her dress, and some earrings. I was going to wow some other man and forget my first disastrous try after fasting.

But once I got to the club tonight, I just didn’t feel like letting loose. We danced. We drank. But not full out. Mostly we sat and talked. The good kind.

Like what do I want to do in the next five years. What happens if we never find a man to marry? Where do we go from 30?

See, she was hitting 3-0 in a few weeks too, so I wasn’t alone in my wallowing. She felt exactly the same way I did. Didn’t want to be blue about being single and alone at thirty, but didn’t want to wallow in pity or misery either.

So where was the middle line? How did one act happy, when deep down you aren’t?

Too many deep questions for a club, so we left and got coffee. I had a message from Greg – remembered I forgot to tell him Hi – and logged off. I put him on my to-do list – not literally – for tomorrow. I had too much to dwell on while pretending I wasn’t dwelling.

Dating Idol - Day 41

All I wanted to do tonight after work was chill with a glass of wine. Or a wine cooler. Something to ease the ball of stress I seem to be carrying around the last few days.

I had no sooner walked through my front door and dropped my keys then the phone rang. After a quick thank God I hadn’t given my home # to Ron so he could harass me via cell and home, I looked at the caller ID. Worse, it was my mother!!

I tried to greet her like nothing was wrong. She saw through all of the bullshit and zeroed right in on me. “What are you doing?” she asked. Since I wasn’t sure what exactly she was referring to, I had to ask.

And I shouldn’t have.

Ron seems to have an even better relationship with his mother and BLABBED that I wasn’t answering his calls. He failed to mention how often he calls. And he must have left out the one night stand part, because my mom didn’t badger me about that bit. I told her I wasn’t interested, which she said was too bad, he was one of the nicest guys I had been around lately. I bit back, “How would you know?” and gritted my teeth for the remainder of the guilt trip.

If only I had the balls to tell her exactly how well her set up worked, she may quit.

Dating Idol - Day 42

I decided to work out when I got home today. Yeah, I’m not sure what made me do it – probably the fact that my birthday is looming near. The sweat and the muscle exertion felt good. Tomorrow I might be saying something a little different!

Nobody was going out tonight, so I took a shower and put my pajamas on while I parked in front of the computer. I logged on to find a few offline messages, which always makes me happy. John wondered how I was since it had been two whole days since I had last talked to him. I’m not sure if the attentiveness is sincere all the time. Today it felt forced, so I’m gonna cool my jets with him for a while.

Greg was on, too. He seems like a cool guy. I think I may begin pressing for a little more information from him.

I let it slip about a birthday party. But then I felt stupid about feeling stupid. Yeah, it’s my birthday. Everyone has one, so why should I keep trying to hide mine? 3. 0. Big deal, right? Yeah, I know. Everyone is making it out to be a bigger deal than I’d like.

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