Jills Story - Online Romance Part 4

Jill's online romance

Here I sit, all over again, drafting a profile. Sigh. I miss my Asian Amour. I miss seeing his box pop up in the top left corner. I still remember our two dates like it was yesterday. That first hug at the steak house when I just melted into him. And our second date – I thought he was just going to kiss me. Mmmm, it was a little more than that. I’m sure I went beyond recommended second date behavior.

I guess I was just so thrilled to have a second date at all. I’ll always wonder if moving too fast was what caused us to not move at all.

I mean, we had a 7-month relationship. But we NEVER went out in public. He’d just come over late at night and we’d “snuggle”. Hah! “Snuggle”, it sounds so innocent like that fabric softener bear. Hey, I don’t care what he wanted to call it – it was good. So we chatted almost every night and once every few weeks we’d “snuggle”. And then he said we were through. Yeah, I’m sure he was married. But if he wasn’t, I know we could have been good together. We always had great conversations...and great snuggling!

Well, now that the holidays are past I’m ready to start again. This time instead of an ID based on my favorite city I’m going to choose something that shows my character and my religious beliefs. Maybe that will attract the right sort of guy.

Two weeks with my new ID and no luck so far. All the emails I’ve gotten are total losers. And all the profiles I see are the same ones I saw with my old ID. Sigh. Let’s see what today brings...

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!

OK, get a hold of yourself. But how funny is that? Although, maybe it’s not funny, maybe it shows we were meant to be. Wasn’t there a song about such a situation? Da, da, da, da, come with me and escape.

Alright my Asian Amour, I’m going to have a little fun with you before I reveal my true self! First I’ll reply to your email and ask about your favorite music. Once you reply I’ll ask if you like Rupert Holmes. You probably won’t know him but you’ll ask what type of music he plays and then I’ll send you an MP3 file of the “Escape” song and then you’ll ask what that was for and then I’ll reveal myself.

Alright, email sent. Ha, I still can’t believe he replied to my new ID. I’m sure he doesn’t know it’s me because I made everything different, other than vital statistics. So he didn’t want a relationship with me the first time but he’s still looking.

Yep, he was surprised. Sigh. I’m so glad he agreed to try again. But this time, I’m going to promise myself I’m not going to save myself just for him. He obviously isn’t dedicated to me. So I’ll see him every few weeks and see others in between. I mean that’s what he said all along but I couldn’t do it the first time. I kept hoping he’d settle down with me. So, I’ve really got to get my brain in a new place, a “player” place.

Wow, I never thought I’d be a player!

I never thought I’d be “snuggling” with one guy and having first dates with others. But I’m excited about it. Yeah, I can do this. A whole new me to go with my whole new ID. Even though I picked my new ID to show my true character and this is so against my self, against my morals. But maybe this is how the dating game is played. Maybe I’m finally catching on.

And speaking of on, who’s this guy popping up on my bottom left corner. Oh yeah, I talked to him the other day. He was nice.

Then there’s the bottom left corner. We always chat before dinner. And tonight he asked me out to dinner. Oh great! Now he wants to come over and snuggle. Does he know I just made a date for tomorrow? Maybe he’s Mr. Bottom Left Corner too. Maybe he’s teasing me like I teased him with that song. Maybe that’s why bottom leftie won’t show me his picture until we meet face to face. Well, snuggling is always fun and the mystery will be revealed tomorrow. For now, I better sign off and go shower...

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